THEPLACE THAT ONLY GOD CAN REACH

Berty brought this back to me today as I read her blog. This experience happened to me a short time after the Lord came intomy life. I was so filled with the wonder of His love and forgiveness I wanted to be pure like He. It's quite a journey to know and grow into God. There has to be a beginning, but once began there will never be an end. It is wonderful to know we are on this journey together

THE PLACE

The place inside myself that only God can reach
Where hidden there from others is the darkness of my life,
God comes there and looks deep into my soul
I cringe and squirm and try to turn away.
Oh, God I cry please don’t look into the abyss of what is me.
He answered me, I must, my child, to bring it to the light
Let me in that awful place where the darkness is so deep,
Where squirmy things and squishy things can’t get out except by me.
In the darkness of my soul I wait before my Lord.
He who gave his life for me deserves to see deep into me.
What happens when He comes with purity and light
And opens that dark door of me and brings it to his light?
The lies I’ve told, perversions felt, the misery and strife
Is nothing compared to all the things I hold onto so tight.
Fear, distrust, dishonesty prejudice and hate,
Sin is a very funny thing holding onto feels so right.
Then one day the Savior comes and fills me with his light.
He said, give me the darkness and I’ll be your delight
Until I posses all of you our oneness won’t be right.
I said, Oh, God who made the universe and me,
Who loves me with eternity is sight
Open the door to all things dark and bring your light to me,
Move into that darkest hell that lives inside of me.
One at a time He showed to me things that had to go.
Naming them one by one He brought them to the light,
Horrid things, forgotten in the darkness of my night,
Things that kept my Lord and me apart.
Go further Lord, each corner must be searched,
Selfishness and greed, envy and all other things of the night.
I squirmed beneath his penetrating light.
Into the corners of that place the light tried hard to go
Till understanding came to me to show it was I who had to let them go.
God’s light came, and one by one I knew He saw my sin.
The light burned bright and in each hole and corner shone.
Out, I said as each was brought to light,
Take them Lord and fill me with your light.
Empty then I stood, or so I thought until I understood it was still not right.
What is wrong, Oh God, I pled to know.
He answered, comprehend my child it’s you who has to go.
Its not the acts of sin you harbor there,
But the source of all the sin I must lay bare.
It’s me you want, dear Lord? How can this be?
If I give myself to you where will I be?
Vanished from the earth no more to see or feel or think?
I’ll be no more if all of me I give to you.
He said, my child you will become a part of me,
I’ll fill the holes and crannies of your soul.
I will become the source of all that’s good,
The darkness will be banished from your soul.
Help me, my God to understand what I must do to rid myself of me.
God said, give me yourself and I’ll remove the darkness of your night,
My Spirit’s light will fill you with myself,
You will reflect the brightness of my own life.
Wrenching, painful rooting of the nature bound to me,
To rid myself of me must be.
In the light God sees with me the turmoil of my soul.
I struggle as I try to keep myself for me.
God waited, as death to self I cried
To be rid of me became my great desire.
Wrenching pain gave way to hope and peace
As Christ himself came into that dark space.
The darkness fled, the struggle ended.
My God became the light inside of me.
The Spirit of his very self engulfed the empty space in me.
There is a place where Adam lived, the past is gone with him.
My Lord, My God has come instead, my life is lived in him.
Glory, Glory, Glory the Son is in my soul.
The Holy Spirit’s power is here to keep me whole.
I’m in heavenly places; my God is in my heart,
The riches of my Father’s life,
His love and glory given,
Will fill my life from now until I’m with him In his Heaven.

By
VEQ

HOW MUCH ARE YOU WORTH?

So was the title of the sermon this morning. David's people said David was worth ten thousand of them and would not let David go into battle to protect his safety. The Queen of Sheba gave Solomen so much, but Solomon could not give her the wisdom she was after. God had given Solomon the gift of wisdom after he had asked for it so he could govern and discern the needs of is people, but the greatest gift was given for us in the death of God's only Son on the cross.
The message gave me a look at my worth to God. How marvelous to know I mean so much to someone that He would die in my place. I look forward to thaning Him in person one of these days.

THE VISITORS ARE BACK

We waited for the visitors to come while Berty was here. This evening they came cavorting around the apple trees. One was frisky, acting like a buck in rooting season, or maybe it was brother and sister playing around. Anyway we were happy to see them and now we know why we wanted Berty to stay a week longer. Now we have to get busy and put a protective fence around the apple trees so we can enjoy watching the fruit grow and ripen. The golden swamp roses and the blue forget-me-nots are making the woods glow with their colors. Spring, a wonderful time of year, reminding me of my own new birth, God has been so gracious in giving to me.

Vacation? Over so soon?

Berty's vacation seems so short, but we packed a lot into this short time,
been so great having her to ourselves. And her Dad kept her busy, and watching the birds kept her occupied. She worked hard in the garden and planted onion sets for a fall harvest. We visited the cemetaries where the ones who have left us are resting and with that she learned some family history. Best of all we shared the Lord and spiritual things close to both of our hearts and we have things to think and pray about. Tomorro we'll be alone again for awhile, but will be grateful for the time we were able to spend with Berty.

Never Quit Learning

It's frustrating when you learn something new and then when you want to use it out it goes and the process starts all over again. One thing I am sure of I am going to work at this blogging until I get it. Berty is here and she is a good teacher, lots of patience. It's so nice to have her here. She is very comfortable to have around. Likes the variety of birds we have at the feeders, including humming birds and orioles. She saw a porkupine baby up a tree eating lunch of the very new buds just popping out. A rabbitt crossed the front yard and she has been making use of her camera.